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- Contemplating on the vocation of single blessedness because of the many failed attempts of romantic relationships, though somehow it is more than that ♥
- Maybe I should give Him complete control over every circumstance, not just when it is in my convenience. In His time..
- It is suddenly coming all over me, I want to spend more time in the province!! Especially this Holy Week season. I want to spend it in Catbalogan, or maybe Catarman.. I mean, I badly want to!! There's this urge :(
- This Holy Week, I promised myself to redirect my thoughts into something else as soon as I catch my self dwelling on the thoughts of my manghud as part of my Lenten sacrifice.
- It is actually a "sacrifice" because I often catch myself daydreaming on whatever there is about him. I dont know why, but he unconsciously occupies a large amount of my thoughts.
- Well, basically, it's just like this. I've come into conclusion that..
- We might not be meant for each other but nonetheless I don't want to lose him as my friend. If he's gonna be a priest, I want him to treat me as his best friend. I'd rather that he become a priest than see him happy with someone else. THAT would break my heart. He's so easy to love that it requires me a lot of effort, self-control and emotion-stopping-strategies just so the relationship won't get awkward. I'm doing this because I want him as a friend, if not more than that. Is that too much to ask? </3
- How can we become ONLY friends assuming he's in love with someone? How can I pretend I want to support and encourage him to that kind of relationship? If not me, pwede mag pari nalang jud cya? Pleaaaaassee T_T
- Ka realize ko, maskin cya confused! HAHAHA. I have to encourage him nga mag pari!!!!!!!! Well, that is if he'll still talk to me. I don't know what he ate but he has stopped communicating with me for two days now. Two days??? After what happened in his own hometown? I mean, he has basically introduced me to his clan and that should mean something, that should mean I am a GOOD friend to say at the least. How can he not communicate to a good friend?? Just because he has someone else doesn't mean he should just ignore me.. I mean, srsly? :(
