083013

Found out an ex-prospect joined the Million People March in Luneta. I cannot write anything about the Million People March anymore. Whhhyyyyyy o_o
I have been trying so hard to move on and forget your entire existence. How come I just can't? All the what if's are pulling my leg from moving forward. I know I don't want to stay stuck in the misery of being unnoticed. Grrr i hate you ba!!!! #marchan

082613

• For the love of my work, or perhaps the obligation to report to work, has hindered me from participating my would-have-been first government rally. It could've been exciting! F this work.
• My mind is consumed in wondering what's happening on the streets now.
• I just realized, this blog is more of my complaints and rantings compared to the other one which has the banner of "The best things in life aren't exactly things :)" 
• I have to write happy things, or not-depressing-kind of posts on that blog. So yeah. I rant here.
• As of now, I am in a state of confusion that newbie and tier1 who allegedly had a misunderstanding are now BFFs. I am slowly seeing the reality in this workplace. Oh no, oh yes. And I don't care. Letting them be themselves :)
• I just got a number of compliments today from people saying that I'm pretty today. I dont get this everyday. So bati jud diay kog  nawng. HAHAHAHA. Pero okay ra btaw, all I want kai ma genius beyond comprehension bahalag bati kog nawng. Hahay.

xoxo

130802

I AM BOTHERED.

• Too strained to talk. Here again talking to my own self. I just think everyone else makes any sense. 
• I'm in my talk-to-me-or-die stance. Hootsuite has been blocked so I cant tweet again. I'll be ranting longer this time.
• So. First and foremost, I am bothered because of my ever gwapow manghud. I hate how much I have struggled to ignore his presence and not mind the fact that he isn't communicating with me as often as before. I understand that things change. He told me yesterday that he missed me. I miss him MORE. I can't say that. I cannot be selfish and it might not work on my benefit as well. Simply, I don't want to lose him completely.  Seldom communication is better than absolutely nothing. 
• He EXPRESSED that he missed me. Tell me how can I just ignore that! It has been bothering me all night yesterday. So much for paper works and reports. When I woke up, his mom's morning message greeted me. Talk about sleeping to forget. ♥
• Self sustained love. Motivating oneself is hard. I don't know if it's just me....
• Wa nkoi gana sa FUEL. Workplace has not been very friendly. Got a warning earlier about logging in late. They warn attendance issues but not work ethics and troubleshooting skills. Just great!
• My heart is sailing far away from the FUEL officers, okay especially Jess and Jien. Coping up with the attitude of the prior has  been getting more difficult.
• It's getting toxic here at work. I don't like being Tier 2.