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• Contemplating on the vocation of single blessedness because of the many failed attempts of romantic relationships, though somehow it is more than that ♥
• Maybe I should give Him complete control over every circumstance, not just when it is in my convenience. In His time.. 
• It is suddenly coming all over me, I want to spend more time in the province!! Especially this Holy Week season. I want to spend it in Catbalogan, or maybe Catarman.. I mean, I badly want to!! There's this urge :(
• This Holy Week, I promised myself to redirect my thoughts into something else as soon as I catch my self dwelling on the thoughts of my manghud as part of my Lenten sacrifice.
• It is actually a "sacrifice" because I often catch myself daydreaming on whatever there is about him. I dont know why, but he unconsciously occupies a large amount of my thoughts. 
• Well, basically, it's just like this. I've come into conclusion that..
• We might not be meant for each other but nonetheless I don't want to lose him as my friend. If he's gonna be a priest, I want him to treat me as his best friend. I'd rather that he become a priest than see him happy with someone else. THAT would break my heart. He's so easy to love that it requires me a lot of effort, self-control and emotion-stopping-strategies just so the relationship won't get awkward. I'm doing this because I want him as a friend, if not more than that. Is that too much to ask? </3
• How can we become ONLY friends assuming he's in love with someone? How can I pretend I want to support and encourage him to that kind of relationship? If not me, pwede mag pari nalang jud cya? Pleaaaaassee T_T
• Ka realize ko, maskin cya confused! HAHAHA. I have to encourage him nga mag pari!!!!!!!! Well, that is if he'll still talk to me. I don't know what he ate but he has stopped communicating with me for two days now. Two days??? After what happened in his own hometown? I mean, he has basically introduced me to his clan and that should mean something, that should mean I am a GOOD friend to say at the least. How can he not communicate to a good friend?? Just because he has someone else doesn't mean he should just ignore me.. I mean, srsly? :(

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• First day of work from my 5 day Negros Occ vacation
• That vacation? Overall that was a 9.9 out of 10! The 0.1? That is because manghud kept on texting and receiving a call on his phone. Like who the heck was that??? And it was not just once, but during my ENTIRE stay!! Grrr. If only his relatives weren't that accommodating and friendly.. I love them more instead </3
• I couldn't complain to the goodness he has shown me. In fact it was more than enough considering I was ONLY a FRIEND :(
• The experience was too good to be true for my own benefit. I'm afraid my heart would break again.
• How come he's a temptation too hard to resist? Naa pd diay nai level2?
• How come I could say / write a lot when I wanna talk about you? Grr. 
• For this holy week, I will fast on thinking too much about you. Hmmmm..

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• Where does God want me to be? Friends, family, community, special love?
• I want someone to take me away. Or I can take myself away, but that would be lonely. But then again, it would only be me and my Creator, how sweet can that be?
• Am I this weak? This what?
• How can you fight for something which is not even giving you a reason to? but then  you know it is important. He seems important. Manghud is :(
• Hasula ani nga drama. haha T____T
• Ka struggle ba ma happy. Why do I have to go through this? Haha but then you know it's something worth the struggle. Love always is.
• Should I give up or should I keep on chasing pavements? Even if it leads no where. 
• Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. -Proverbs 19:21
• Accept where you are, remember where you've been, but most importantly, know where you want to be.
• Ohyeah! Tita finally messaged me and manghud has confirmed! How can I not hope? ♥
• So final na ni? Negros vacation, hello? Hello strangers from another land! exciteeeeeeeeeeeeeeddd i cant hide itttttttttttttt :D

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• Less calls today
• Facing different horizons. I just realized that. But not really. Our path is to the same destination, HEAVEN. But just in a different journey...

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• When one has no friends, life is sad :(
• Blogger is not working on this cube. #R17PC8
• Or it might be that proxies has been made secured? :'(
• Let me not worry about that. I too happy for any sad news right now :]
• Nagpahagbong ra daw cla. K. 
• When someone desperately tries to make you smile, you can't help but appreciate their efforts

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• Just got a 52min call with purchased cant browse and a VPN issue.  Grrrr.
• Bitterness won't do anything good. It makes you out of focus and just messes everything up. So why am I bitter??
• I know I can't blame other people for my own misery. I gotta be pathetic. Weeee.
• Life is so hard this past few days. WHY?
• "I think I'm emotionally constipated. I haven't given a shit in days."
• Nganong di naman ko katugon inig log out nko. Okhaeyyy.

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Today is Sunday.

• Naa na sad ning mga tao sa kahumayan. They come in at the office but don't take calls. How favored! :)
• Found these while browsing: Suits me best!

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There's a difference between goodbye and letting go. Goodbye is "I'll see you again when I'm ready to hold your hand and when you're ready to hold mine". Letting go is "I'll miss your hand. I realized it's not mine to hold, and will never hold it again..."

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In my life, I've lived. I've loved, I've lost, I've missed, I've hurt, I've trusted, I've made mistakes, but most of all, I'VE LEARNED.
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Legend says, when you can't sleep at night, it's because you're awake in someone else's dream.
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We don't meet people by accident. They are meant to cross our path for a reason.
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You can always trust an unknown future to a known God.
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• True say http://youthpinoy.com/feeling-insecure-try-prayer/  :))

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• Ang pag maoy walay mahimong maayo! LATE.
• One of the regrets we have is not doing our best and taking the thing we currently have for granted and witnessing someone else appreciate it and do it better than you :)
• But then again, it only becomes a regret once we realize it's importance.
• http://ph.she.yahoo.com/blogs/healthy-living/survive-quarter-life-crisis-173300359.html #goodread But I'm still 22? :))
• Guest doesn't know how to navigate his device and I have the urge to shout at him. Talk about bitterness T_T
• Mairita ko ug demanding kaayo nga newbie then wa ra diay ga take ug calls. Palabay mo? #ampalaya
• BITTERSWEET LOVE.

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• What is this I'm feeling, I just can't explain. I can't get you off my mind however I try my hardest to.
• It was just a day of constant messages but the effect lasts more than that.
• I try my hardest not to think about you, try my hardest not to put a big deal out of those messages but it seems so hard, I can'r explain why.
• I don't want this because I know this isn't right but I'm feeling so helpless. I was able to move on easily before but this time seems to be harder.
• One of the complicated things about loving is not knowing when to let yourself fall even without the certainty of the other person catching you back.
• I've had my several trials regarding not falling in love too easily and I somehow succeeded. But this one's a hard one. I want to prove to myself that I can be his "Ate" genuinely with out no strings attached. Oh, but this is almost killing me!
• And I've come into conclusion that relationships starting with friendship are the most complicated, or maybe one of, because you just don't know when you're "just" friends, or when it has become more than that. And you just don't know where the boundary starts. T__T
• I can actually tell you how I feel, however it still won't make a difference. So why bother.
• I will get out of this office kai exhausting na ang environment. Though I still want to use the internet, but I cant stand facing the monitor any longer. Pahuway ta! Haha T_T