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I AM BOTHERED.

• Too strained to talk. Here again talking to my own self. I just think everyone else makes any sense. 
• I'm in my talk-to-me-or-die stance. Hootsuite has been blocked so I cant tweet again. I'll be ranting longer this time.
• So. First and foremost, I am bothered because of my ever gwapow manghud. I hate how much I have struggled to ignore his presence and not mind the fact that he isn't communicating with me as often as before. I understand that things change. He told me yesterday that he missed me. I miss him MORE. I can't say that. I cannot be selfish and it might not work on my benefit as well. Simply, I don't want to lose him completely.  Seldom communication is better than absolutely nothing. 
• He EXPRESSED that he missed me. Tell me how can I just ignore that! It has been bothering me all night yesterday. So much for paper works and reports. When I woke up, his mom's morning message greeted me. Talk about sleeping to forget. ♥
• Self sustained love. Motivating oneself is hard. I don't know if it's just me....
• Wa nkoi gana sa FUEL. Workplace has not been very friendly. Got a warning earlier about logging in late. They warn attendance issues but not work ethics and troubleshooting skills. Just great!
• My heart is sailing far away from the FUEL officers, okay especially Jess and Jien. Coping up with the attitude of the prior has  been getting more difficult.
• It's getting toxic here at work. I don't like being Tier 2.