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- I'm fidgeting to log out today. I'll receive the results of the bloody graduate entrance exam I took yesterday at USC.
- I sure hope I would pass. The graduate program would open more doors for me in participating on government activities - an agency which aims to serve all of its people if not for the better.
- Government has unlimited possibilities. It is a good ground to start helping people in need.
- Being a religious is still a far option form my mind.. I can't imagine myself being able to stay for long.
- I still wish to enter the vocation of marriage. The vocation of single blessedness and religious doesn't sound as attractive. But whatever God's will is, I would joyfully and whole heartedly embrace it.
- I remember the last message of my manghud, like three days ago (hahay kadugay na wala napud gaparamdam ang gwapo huhu), he told me that that person should "just be around the corner, nasa tabi2 lang. baka kasi iniisnab ko tapos nahihiya lang lumapit kasi akala ang dami ko ng achievements". Funny how he puts it that way.. I do reject any attention given by a male specie right away knowing his intentions are not as important. I also make sure I don't entertain any conversation which doesnt stimulate my interest. Or maybe I intentionally disregard their existence because I have found the only male creature which I am interested in engaging with. Or doesn't he just get the fact that I don't entertain other men because of him?Even when he didn't have to tell me so. Parang voluntary act lang ba, but he seems to push me away. Tskkkk.
- As of the moment, I am entirely comfortable with any relationship I have with the people around me. There are no complications and all I have are positive vibes. I purposely turn my back to people which does the contrary. I mean, what do I need them for? Maybe I'm committing the sin of omission for not lending a hand to those people who needs my assistance, But it surely is not in my convenience if I do so.. And what do I get in return? But then again, when you genuinely want to help other people, one should not ask for any favors in return. This is such a battle I have to face with myself. HAHA. For now, I enjoy being enclosed in my own narrow world. Uhm is this something I need to address? :3
- Regarding that swap Precious has requested earlier, argh, I wanted to decline. But I might need a return favor someday. Of course I expect that. All I wanted was a complimentary taxi ride on my way home. It is not easy to work 6am after a 9pm end of shift the previous day -_-
- I sure am gonna miss my 6am shift. Hmmmm -_-
